One of the states that makes me feel “home” is when I’m with my puppies — Oberyn and Elia (fans of the Game of Thrones would get this :p). They are German Shepherd and Huskie mixes, they are siblings, and they will be turning 4 years old on Halloween this year (yup, they are Halloween babies). Whenever I’m with them, I sense a huge satisfaction and happiness inside me. My mind and body would feel loose, and I find myself becoming a “kid”. Because I would talk with the puppies in a “baby voice”; ask them questions as if they could speak (most of the time they actually know what I’m talking about); mimic their behaviors and voices; play with them as if I was also a puppy. The other big contentment I receive from being with the puppies is that my tactile sense can be extremely satisfied. I enjoy cuddling them on the bed, touching their fluffy bodies, patting their heads, and giving them kisses. Sometimes, my love seems too much for them and they have to escape, but I feel so grateful for them to let me love them, and I know they love me, too.
Another positive “home” feeling I can get from being with the puppies is about taking responsibility for them. Taking care of the puppies could be tiring sometimes. I must feed them, keep them hydrated, take them to the dog park, let them out to potty, and walk them. Being a puppy mom makes me feel that I’m needed, I have the power and ability to provide for them and I can love them. All of these make me feel that I’m worthy. I believe feeling “home” is not just about getting, but also about giving.